From Hoping to Holding ✨

No one could’ve prepared me for the transition from hoping & waiting to having & holding. God gave me a pretty clear heads up (see journal entry below), but still… Recalibrating my faith from simply believing God’s promises to actively holding & cultivating them in real time is a major transition that I didn’t expect to be so intense. 

I’ve definitely felt fear at times for multiple reasons… is it really finally here? is it okay for me to exhale and lean in? the ease & rest I once prayed for and was promised… can I really trust it in real time? 

And one of the biggest questions of all… am I losing my faith? 🙈 

Obviously, the answer is no, but faith definitely looks (& feels) a lot different in this season than it did in the “wilderness” of waiting, just as God said it would a while back. Now, faith looks like remembering all God has said and referencing prayers I’ve prayed, and being reminded that there was a time when those served as placeholders for the tangible evidence of things I’d once only hoped for and the substance of things I can now see & touch. I’m reminded that I was never meant to have faith for faith’s sake, but rather that faith has always filled in the gaps between spoken and fulfilled. 

To be in a season of “fulfillment” is incredibly humbling & earth shattering in the best kind of way. So again I say, no one could have prepared me for this process, but God told me it would come and even some of what to expect… 

& now that it’s here, God is with me just as He was in the waiting! 

God is faithful & He keeps His word. I’ve believed that for a long time & now, I get to see it in a new way… and for that, I’m extremely grateful! 🩷

✍🏾 February 24, 2026 @ 4:06a 

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Personal Journal Entry | From Dreaming to Having, written August 1, 2025 @ 5:24a: 

It’s time to go from dreaming & imagining to having and stewarding. You had to be in a certain place previously due to trauma and being in a place of wanting, but now, it’s okay and necessary to allow yourself to release the need to live with your head in the clouds and to embrace being able to step into the dream(s) in real life. 

There are many ways in which you have already done so, but overall, it’s time to shift your mindset and posture. You’ve healed, you’ve grown, you’ve been stretched and set free, and now, it’s time to step into the promise land and hold the promise(s). 

That said, faith is not fading; it will just look different going forward. Instead of holding your breath & waiting for manna from heaven, you can now go forth knowing that God is within you and Heaven is backing you as you go forth to ‘take the land’. 

God is within you and you shall not fail! 

It’s okay and good and necessary for you to LIVE now, sis. And build your divine vision as you do. It’s literally only UP from here! 

No more struggle; only strategy!